running

sometimes I just feel like running
running away from all the stress, abuse, and the hate
I want to break free
start a new adventure into the unknown abyss and just truly find myself
find who I really am
and maybe be someone I can truly live without regret

That is just a thought
A simple thought of freedom
Just like as the wind flows through every crevice of the world
It is still free, flowing

I need sometime for myself
Time is wasting and I'm sitting here
Waiting
Waiting for something to happen

I just need somebody to come a ease my troublin' mind

stand by me

When the night has come

And the land is dark

And the moon is the only light we'll see

No I won't be afraid, no I won't be afraid

Just as long as you stand, stand by me

This song is the one of most inspiring songs I have ever heard.
There's something about rhythm and blues that just melts my heart away
This song helped me through writing my ten page thesis
It was on reply like crazy!

So Darling' Darling' Stand by Me
Whenever you're in trouble just stand by me


I don't think the lyrics can get anymore soulful and full of strength
I just want to close my eyes and dance to this song under the moonlight

Ten Pages

of my precious time writing a thesis paper, which I should've started weeks ago!
I haven't done a single essay for my English teacher this past semester
but, I decided to do the five page paper on capital punishment and how it goes against the 8th Amendment

Then I started my ten page thesis on Modern American Slavery....
That was the essay from hell not because I started it lastnight like at 6pm
but, the fact that it had to be ten pages
it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be
I actually put my head, heart, and soul to it and wrote thirteen bloody pages
of pure misery
Well... It wasn't as bad as other people say it was
In all honesty I had a pretty easy topic which made it easy to find evidence
My paper was just:

• Main Idea
• Evidence
• Analysis 
• More Evidence
• More Analysis
• More Evidence
• More Analysis x50million
• Link to thesis

Thank God I wrote an outline prior to the essay because if I didn't,

Oh Lord, I think I would still be typing this paper.

best friends forever

The things I do for this girl man....
One might say that it isn't worth it and that friends come and go
Just like the waves in the Pacific,
but, I prefer to disagree

When you know someone so good that you start think that:
"One day we're going to grow up and move on with our lives..."
or somewhere along those lines,
that maybe we will get into a huge fight that will end our friendship
That's me though, always over-thinking things so I won't jinx it

It's pretty sad to say we've built pretty much our lives and futures together
We even thought about marrying best friends so that we can never lose each other
What an imagination we both have, huh?

I know Michelle better than she knows herself
and I'm not afraid to be completely honest with her
I'm like that will a lot of people but with Michelle its like I don't have to sugar coat it
even just a little...
Well, sometimes... SHH


I love her with all my heart,
she's my best friend
we only have on in our lives

Anticipating Prom

Prom, the night that most teenagers will never forget.... Or remember

I want to enjoy my prom, who doesn't?
I mean it's the last night you spend with the people you spent four years of your life with
You've watched them grow and become the person they are today
You were there when they had their first break up,
failed a class(s), gotten into trouble, tried new things with ie: smoking, drinking, sex

I will never forget high school,
although those losers aren't going to be in my life forever
I'm so blessed that I had the opportunity to have them in my life
Even for such a small amount of time
They've definitely help shape the person I am today
I'm so happy to be a milestone in someone's life

Mature Feelings

Am I really mature?

I handle situations better than most girls because I often don't like to cry and brag about it

I like to be strong about every situation I'm in and keep positive

Who knows, maybe someday I will start opening up to more people about my life

Although people may think they know me, they don't.

My demons, my sorrows, my bitterness love, my hopeless heart, my abused feelings, selfless tears, my faithful soul.

They don't know who I am, I don't even know who I am

But what I do know is that I want to be happy.

Its harder than it seems being happy...

Sometimes you just have to be upset, but I can't. 

Does that make me mature?

Or does that make me weak?

I cannot fathom the idea of crying over someone

I'm just tired of being emotional

I don't believe in second chances in life, we only live once, do what you can before you expire

Is that good? bad?

Life is just so unpredictable (i'm sure you've heard that one before, huh)

But still... Do you believe everything happens for a reason?

I do.

If there is no reasoning behind any decision I make, I must've been high... 

Music for the Eyes

Dancing

What is it without feeling?

Just a moving body without rhyme, feel, and emotion

Flickering images without a sense of understanding
Imagine watching a silent movie without all the emotion and strength to make it look absolute
Engaging into a selfless world of desire and wanting
Wanting to understand the ability of such movement

Now that is what dance is,
music for the eyes

As classical as the wind